I'm disappointed.

There are several things going on for me that I feel disappointed about: my new dog not bonding with me as quickly as I want her to; the insurance company not yet approving the CPAP machine; the way the leader of our country continues to act without compassion towards our brothers and sisters in Puerto Rico and the fact that he is even our president. If I gave myself time, I could probably come up with a few more. The question I asked myself this morning was: what do I do with these feelings? After all, they are only feelings. They don't necessarily represent reality, whatever that is.

I keep coming back to the idea of acceptance. Many times in our lives, we simply have to accept what is while doing our best to cooperate with the energies going on. It is not within my power to open the president's heart and mind, to change him in any way. I have to depend on those around him to do their best to wake him up. And I have to accept that he is who he is and it is very unlikely he will change in any substantial way. The only hope is to have him see it is in his own best interests to behave differently - that might motivate him but I doubt it.

The insurance company is going to follow its procedures and I am not in the position of being able to change that. Truthfully, they are acting as quickly as they can, I am sure, and it has only been a little over two weeks since the request was made for approval.

My dog is who she is and although I am doing all the right things and she is a great dog, the bonding will happen the way it does. It isn't fair to compare her to my dog who passed over in November - we had been together over 13 years and had bonded deeply. I have to remember that bond took time to form. A young dog doesn't act in the same way as a mature one. I have to be patient.

One of the best ways I have found to deal with disappointment is to focus on the good in my life, on the things that are working, to say "thank you" to Divine Mother/Father for my life exactly as it is. I have learned that everything works toward the great good eventually, even when I can't see how that is going to happen. I have to do my part but other than that I have to let go and let God, as the saying goes. Life can be mysterious and, when I see it this way, life is also a lot more fun! I'm off to play fetch with my little dog now....