When people ask me how I'm feeling, I tell them the truth: I feel great! My symptoms are under control. Even with my continuing mobility issues, my heart is doing great. I have great energy, and I continue to use all of my alternative practices, including some new ones by Ann Marie Chiasson that I discovered recently. There's only one area of frustration and I have shared it with my physician: he still has me taking water pills twice a day which keeps my schedule somewhat limited. I cheat.
When I asked the cardiologist how she felt about my cheating by taking only one pill some days or none at all, she said, "I don't like your doing that. I don't want to get a phone call one day telling me you're in the hospital with pneumonia." I don't want her getting that call either! I also don't want to live my life where every decision is based on how close I am to the ladies room. So, some days I cheat. It is planned cheating.
When I cheat, I immediately resume my normal schedule the next day so the drug stays in my system. So far, it is working for me. I keep written records of what I'm doing and share those with my PCP when I see him so I'm not hiding this. He seems okay with it....
Meanwhile, of course, I am working with my heart and entire system to get to the place where I don't need the drug - my doc seems to feel I will need this the rest of my life and I fully intend to prove him wrong. But I do ask myself if I am playing with fire or if I am being smart. So far, so good. We'll see what happens from here.
Last week, I spoke at Everett Unity and led a meditation. If you want to listen to either, you can find them here:
http://www.everettunity.org/audio-archive.html
Monday, January 29, 2018
Wednesday, January 17, 2018
Can forgiveness heal us?
The work of a woman named Luanne Oakes was recently dropped into my life again. I had worked with one of her audio programs years ago but hadn't thought of her lately. Luanne left the planet in 2011 I learned, but her audio programs are available through Nightingale Conant and iTunes. I was drawn to the one called the The 9 Golden Keys: A New Spirituality of Freedom, Abundance, and Grace Through Sacred Tuning and one called The Temple of Rejuvenation. She also came out with one book called Sound Health, Sound Wealth, now out of print but I was able to find a copy.
Besides presenting solid metaphysical principles, Luanne worked a lot with what she called Sacred Tuning and each of her programs and the book offers a sound recording called a frequency treatment that can be listened to multiple times, the purpose of which is to help rebalance your energy and support whatever sort of healing you might need in your life.
One of the issues covered (no surprise here) is forgiveness of self and others. As I suspect is true of you, I have done a ton of forgiveness and releasing work over the years. As with other things in life, there are layers upon layers for this type of work and some of it goes back to other lifetimes or even parallel lives we might be living.
Luanne suggests making a list of anyone you feel you need to forgive or people you think might hold something against you. I figured, why not? Another round of forgiveness could only be helpful. So I started a list of anyone I thought I might harbor the least bit of resentment towards and people I thought might be holding some resentment towards me. I gave myself time to do this and after a few weeks had a few pages! I even remembered some forgotten situations and people from my twenties.
Right before the end of the year, I did a forgiveness ceremony. I tore the pages into small pieces and then burned the pieces in a small can until I had only ashes. To this, I added water and then took this outside and put it in the compost pile! When doing this, I was consciously letting go and invoking fire, air, water, earth and ether to act as my agents to help carry my intentions as far as they needed to go - back in time, forward in time, and parallel to time, if that exists!
This was one of the most freeing forgiveness/letting go processes I've done. Involving all the elements felt key to me this time and there was a more visceral feel to the process.
I have been listening to Luanne's frequency treatments at least an hour a day for over a month now and feel myself coming into a new sort of balance. I'm even scheduled to speak at Unity of Everett this Sunday, something I haven't done in about a year!
The recordings have "soft intentional music," a drone sound of 4342 hz that is the vibration we need to be at for health, chimes, nature sounds, and "supportive messages through frequencies with sacred geometrical timing."
This has been another exciting leg of my great adventure - let's see where it takes me!
Besides presenting solid metaphysical principles, Luanne worked a lot with what she called Sacred Tuning and each of her programs and the book offers a sound recording called a frequency treatment that can be listened to multiple times, the purpose of which is to help rebalance your energy and support whatever sort of healing you might need in your life.
One of the issues covered (no surprise here) is forgiveness of self and others. As I suspect is true of you, I have done a ton of forgiveness and releasing work over the years. As with other things in life, there are layers upon layers for this type of work and some of it goes back to other lifetimes or even parallel lives we might be living.
Luanne suggests making a list of anyone you feel you need to forgive or people you think might hold something against you. I figured, why not? Another round of forgiveness could only be helpful. So I started a list of anyone I thought I might harbor the least bit of resentment towards and people I thought might be holding some resentment towards me. I gave myself time to do this and after a few weeks had a few pages! I even remembered some forgotten situations and people from my twenties.
Right before the end of the year, I did a forgiveness ceremony. I tore the pages into small pieces and then burned the pieces in a small can until I had only ashes. To this, I added water and then took this outside and put it in the compost pile! When doing this, I was consciously letting go and invoking fire, air, water, earth and ether to act as my agents to help carry my intentions as far as they needed to go - back in time, forward in time, and parallel to time, if that exists!
This was one of the most freeing forgiveness/letting go processes I've done. Involving all the elements felt key to me this time and there was a more visceral feel to the process.
I have been listening to Luanne's frequency treatments at least an hour a day for over a month now and feel myself coming into a new sort of balance. I'm even scheduled to speak at Unity of Everett this Sunday, something I haven't done in about a year!
The recordings have "soft intentional music," a drone sound of 4342 hz that is the vibration we need to be at for health, chimes, nature sounds, and "supportive messages through frequencies with sacred geometrical timing."
This has been another exciting leg of my great adventure - let's see where it takes me!
Thursday, January 11, 2018
Am I enough? Are you?
What if I am enough right now, just as I am? What if you are enough right now, just as you are? In this community of spiritual self-improvement and striving for a life of higher consciousness (whatever that means to you or to me), is it possible we’re short-circuiting ourselves?
What if the life I have right now is precisely the one I am meant to have? What if I embrace it as it is instead of pushing against it by trying to be something or someone I am not? And what if when I do this, it allows new energy to come in and make whatever changes are required, even ones I am not able to see or imagine right now?
Is it time to let go of some of the control we all so desperately seek? Is it time to let the Universe/God/Higher Self tell us what it wants instead of us always telling it what we want? Heresy, I know.
I wonder if we stopped the violence we wage against ourselves so mightily, we would see less violence in the world around us? We each have to provide our own answers to these questions. There isn’t one right response. Just ask the questions and see what comes up for you and know your answers are as valid as anyone else’s.
What if the life I have right now is precisely the one I am meant to have? What if I embrace it as it is instead of pushing against it by trying to be something or someone I am not? And what if when I do this, it allows new energy to come in and make whatever changes are required, even ones I am not able to see or imagine right now?
Is it time to let go of some of the control we all so desperately seek? Is it time to let the Universe/God/Higher Self tell us what it wants instead of us always telling it what we want? Heresy, I know.
I wonder if we stopped the violence we wage against ourselves so mightily, we would see less violence in the world around us? We each have to provide our own answers to these questions. There isn’t one right response. Just ask the questions and see what comes up for you and know your answers are as valid as anyone else’s.
Saturday, January 6, 2018
I miss playing the pipe organ
This morning I was listening to Bach’s Toccata in D and realized I used to play that piece. When I was in college as a piano pedagogy student, the pipe organ was my second instrument followed by voice (singing) as my third.
The piano was my first passion but I truly loved playing the pipe organ the college had in their big auditorium. It had three keyboards for one’s hands, many stops that changed the sound of the organ, and two keyboards for the feet. Playing it was very challenging and I practiced the organ four hours a day. I had been given a key to the auditorium so I could practice in the early morning hours without having to ask anyone to let me in. I was by myself and the only light was that put off by the lamp that lit the keyboard.
I remember sitting there for hours at a time, coaxing beautiful and magnificent tones out of the pipes that surrounded the stage. The power of making that instrument play loud or soft, massive or delicate was an amazing experience. And as I was remember this, I realize I will never do that again. I will never be that agile on a keyboard because I don’t practice eight hours a day (four on the organ and four on the piano) like I did then. Nor do I want to.
I realize that everyone, whether they are six or 96 years old, has things they will never do again. Do we sometimes hold ourselves back by wishing we could do things that brought us joy in the past? Would we be better off to acknowledge the joy we had and then look to the present to find what brings us joy now?
Memories can be great entertainers, especially if we modify them to remember mostly the good and not the bad. For instance, I remember the joy of playing the pipe organ and forget the hours of tedious repetition of the same notes and passages that I had to play over and over again so that when I performed the piece all anyone heard was the final perfect rendition of the piece. Selective memory can be a blessing.
So I set about today creating memories for my future self to look back upon with joy and satisfaction, knowing I will never return to this space in time again nor would I want to. What memories are you creating today? Are they worthy of you and will you be glad you created them?
The piano was my first passion but I truly loved playing the pipe organ the college had in their big auditorium. It had three keyboards for one’s hands, many stops that changed the sound of the organ, and two keyboards for the feet. Playing it was very challenging and I practiced the organ four hours a day. I had been given a key to the auditorium so I could practice in the early morning hours without having to ask anyone to let me in. I was by myself and the only light was that put off by the lamp that lit the keyboard.
I remember sitting there for hours at a time, coaxing beautiful and magnificent tones out of the pipes that surrounded the stage. The power of making that instrument play loud or soft, massive or delicate was an amazing experience. And as I was remember this, I realize I will never do that again. I will never be that agile on a keyboard because I don’t practice eight hours a day (four on the organ and four on the piano) like I did then. Nor do I want to.
I realize that everyone, whether they are six or 96 years old, has things they will never do again. Do we sometimes hold ourselves back by wishing we could do things that brought us joy in the past? Would we be better off to acknowledge the joy we had and then look to the present to find what brings us joy now?
Memories can be great entertainers, especially if we modify them to remember mostly the good and not the bad. For instance, I remember the joy of playing the pipe organ and forget the hours of tedious repetition of the same notes and passages that I had to play over and over again so that when I performed the piece all anyone heard was the final perfect rendition of the piece. Selective memory can be a blessing.
So I set about today creating memories for my future self to look back upon with joy and satisfaction, knowing I will never return to this space in time again nor would I want to. What memories are you creating today? Are they worthy of you and will you be glad you created them?
Tuesday, January 2, 2018
A shocking beginning to my year
Yesterday, January 1, 2018, began wonderfully. I had a great quiet morning time, meditation, and had written the blog I sent out. For the past ten or so years, it has become a tradition to get together with my sister on New Year’s Day. We were preparing to do this and I took a few things to the car. When I returned to the house, my lower back hurt in a way I had never felt before. The pain was sharp and intense.
We debated whether or not we should still go. I had no idea what I had done physically or metaphysically to cause this since I hadn’t lifted anything heavy or done anything else that could cause what I was feeling. We decided to go anyway, hoping the pain would work itself out.
What a miserable time I had. The pain got worse, not better, and sometimes when I tried to walk, it was so sharp and intense that I almost fell. We stopped at the store on the way home and Rhonda got me a lower back body wrap that is heated in the microwave and some icy-hot pain patches and some Tylenol. She helped me into the house and I sat at our kitchen table for rest of the day, doing Reiki, praying (OK, begging for relief) and letting my back heal. By 6:00 pm, it was much better and this morning I feel almost normal again.
What the heck happened? I reminded myself that in my blog I had mentioned the Universe gives us pop quizzes and that we can’t always predict what will happen. That was certainly true for me yesterday. I did a tarot reading on the incident this morning and it was very positive, that this was actually a clearing and an ending to some pain I wasn’t even aware I had! And that ultimately, it is leading me to a major transformation.
Okay, Universe. May I request that from here on out, the clearings be a little more gentle and occur with greater grace and ease? Thank you.
I hope your New Year’s Day was less dramatic than mine. Now on to day two of the New Year.
We debated whether or not we should still go. I had no idea what I had done physically or metaphysically to cause this since I hadn’t lifted anything heavy or done anything else that could cause what I was feeling. We decided to go anyway, hoping the pain would work itself out.
What a miserable time I had. The pain got worse, not better, and sometimes when I tried to walk, it was so sharp and intense that I almost fell. We stopped at the store on the way home and Rhonda got me a lower back body wrap that is heated in the microwave and some icy-hot pain patches and some Tylenol. She helped me into the house and I sat at our kitchen table for rest of the day, doing Reiki, praying (OK, begging for relief) and letting my back heal. By 6:00 pm, it was much better and this morning I feel almost normal again.
What the heck happened? I reminded myself that in my blog I had mentioned the Universe gives us pop quizzes and that we can’t always predict what will happen. That was certainly true for me yesterday. I did a tarot reading on the incident this morning and it was very positive, that this was actually a clearing and an ending to some pain I wasn’t even aware I had! And that ultimately, it is leading me to a major transformation.
Okay, Universe. May I request that from here on out, the clearings be a little more gentle and occur with greater grace and ease? Thank you.
I hope your New Year’s Day was less dramatic than mine. Now on to day two of the New Year.
Monday, January 1, 2018
And so it begins....
The calendar has turned. It’s 2018 and I feel a collective sigh that 2017 is gone. Over. Done. There is an open, clean, blank page in front of us and we get to write on it what we will. In the system I use that is based on the tarot, this is an 11/2 year. It is a year of reaping what we have sown - not just us, of course; everybody gets to reap what was sown last year.
This doesn’t mean we should be passive and just wait to see what happens. More than ever, it is important that we live in high awareness, paying attention to our own thoughts and feelings, being sure we are clear in our intentions and in our actions. If you don’t make resolutions at this time of the year, that's fine. It's important, though, to make a some sort of clear statements about who you want to be and become and then make plans for how you intend to do that.
This past year certainly brought me surprises. Last January, I had no idea that by April 1, I would be gasping for air and barely able to function until my condition was brought under control. This has been quite a journey and I have read, listened to, and experienced various teachers, techniques, and healings, allopathic and natural.
Now I get to sit with these and decide which will become more permanent parts of my life. The most important thing any of us can do right now is make a decision. Everything begins with making a decision. If we waver, if we make only half-hearted attempts to become someone we want to be, our results will also be half-hearted.
Who do I want to be in 2018 and beyond? What do I want to be doing? Where do I want to be physically, mentally, emotionally? Yes, I get to decide these things and so do you. Does it mean I won’t be thrown curve balls? Of course not. That is part of the beauty of life - we get surprises, we get pop quizzes from the Universe so we can see how we’re doing. But I can set my course, stay centered and aware and be ready for what comes back at me. So can you.
I’m happy you’re with me as we turn this page to the next chapter. Let's move forward with conscious intentions of love, peace, plenty, and joy for everyone!
If you aren't on my email list and don't know about the free guided meditation I'm offering until 11:59 this evening, here is the information.
Go to this web page:
http://anoasisforyoursoul.com/guided-meditative-journeys/
Scroll down to the Journey to the Realm of the Masters. Put it in your cart. At checkout, enter 2018 in the code box and the MP3 will download for you free. After putting it on your computer, then you can move it to your other devices if you want to do that. The meditation lasts about 20 minutes.
Happy New Year!
This doesn’t mean we should be passive and just wait to see what happens. More than ever, it is important that we live in high awareness, paying attention to our own thoughts and feelings, being sure we are clear in our intentions and in our actions. If you don’t make resolutions at this time of the year, that's fine. It's important, though, to make a some sort of clear statements about who you want to be and become and then make plans for how you intend to do that.
This past year certainly brought me surprises. Last January, I had no idea that by April 1, I would be gasping for air and barely able to function until my condition was brought under control. This has been quite a journey and I have read, listened to, and experienced various teachers, techniques, and healings, allopathic and natural.
Now I get to sit with these and decide which will become more permanent parts of my life. The most important thing any of us can do right now is make a decision. Everything begins with making a decision. If we waver, if we make only half-hearted attempts to become someone we want to be, our results will also be half-hearted.
Who do I want to be in 2018 and beyond? What do I want to be doing? Where do I want to be physically, mentally, emotionally? Yes, I get to decide these things and so do you. Does it mean I won’t be thrown curve balls? Of course not. That is part of the beauty of life - we get surprises, we get pop quizzes from the Universe so we can see how we’re doing. But I can set my course, stay centered and aware and be ready for what comes back at me. So can you.
I’m happy you’re with me as we turn this page to the next chapter. Let's move forward with conscious intentions of love, peace, plenty, and joy for everyone!
If you aren't on my email list and don't know about the free guided meditation I'm offering until 11:59 this evening, here is the information.
Go to this web page:
http://anoasisforyoursoul.com/guided-meditative-journeys/
Scroll down to the Journey to the Realm of the Masters. Put it in your cart. At checkout, enter 2018 in the code box and the MP3 will download for you free. After putting it on your computer, then you can move it to your other devices if you want to do that. The meditation lasts about 20 minutes.
Happy New Year!
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